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It was strange to see an electric globe in the air of a spring night. It made |
the street darker and softer; it hung alone, like a gap, and left nothing to be |
seen but a few branches heavy with leaves, standing still at the gap鈥檚 edges. |
The small hint became immense, as if the darkness held nothing but a flood of |
leaves. The mechanical ball of glass made the leaves seem more living; it took |
away their color and gave the promise that in daylight they would be a brighter |
green than had ever existed; it took away one鈥檚 sight and left a new sense |
instead, neither smell nor touch, yet both, a sense of spring and space. |
Keating stopped when he recognized the preposterous orange hair in the darkness |
of the porch. It was the one person whom he had wanted to see tonight. He was |
glad to find Roark alone, and a little afraid of it. |
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"Congratulations, Peter," said Roark. |
"Oh...Oh, thanks...." Keating was surprised to find that he felt more pleasure |
than from any other compliment he had received today. He was timidly glad that |
Roark approved, and he called himself inwardly a fool for it. "...I mean...do |
you know or..." He added sharply: "Has mother been telling you?" |
"She has." |
"She shouldn鈥檛 have!" |
"Why not?" |
"Look, Howard, you know that I鈥檓 terribly sorry about your being..." |
Roark threw his head back and looked up at him. |
"Forget it," said Roark. |
"I...there鈥檚 something I want to speak to you about, Howard, to ask your advice. |
Mind if I sit down?" |
"What is it?" |
Keating sat down on the steps beside him. There was no part that he could ever |
play in Roark鈥檚 presence. Besides, he did not feel like playing a part now. He |
heard a leaf rustling in its fall to the earth; it was a thin, glassy, spring |
sound. |
He knew, for the moment, that he felt affection for Roark; an affection that |
held pain, astonishment and helplessness. |
"You won鈥檛 think," said Keating gently, in complete sincerity, "that it鈥檚 awful |
of me to be asking about my business, when you鈥檝e just been...?" |
"I said forget about that. What is it?" |
"You know," said Keating honestly and unexpectedly even to himself, "I鈥檝e often |
thought that you鈥檙e crazy. But I know that you know many things about |
it--architecture, I mean--which those fools never knew. And I know that you love |
it as they never will." |
"Well?" |
"Well, I don鈥檛 know why I should come to you, but--Howard, I鈥檝e never said it |
before, but you see, I鈥檇 rather have your opinion on things than the Dean鈥檚--I鈥檇 |
probably follow the Dean鈥檚, but it鈥檚 just that yours means more to me myself, I |
don鈥檛 know why. I don鈥檛 know why I鈥檓 saying this, either." |
Roark turned over on his side, looked at him, and laughed. It was a young, kind, |
friendly laughter, a thing so rare to hear from Roark that Keating felt as if |
someone had taken his hand in reassurance; and he forgot that he had a party in |
Boston waiting for him. |
"Come on," said Roark, "you鈥檙e not being afraid of me, are you? What do you want |
to ask about?" |
"It鈥檚 about my scholarship. The Paris prize I got." |
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"Yes?" |
"It鈥檚 for four years. But, on the other hand, Guy Francon offered me a job with |
him some time ago. Today he said it鈥檚 still open. And I don鈥檛 know which to |
take." |
Roark looked at him; Roark鈥檚 fingers moved in slow rotation, beating against the |
steps. |
"If you want my advice, Peter," he said at last, "you鈥檝e made a mistake already. |
By asking me. By asking anyone. Never ask people. Not about your work. Don鈥檛 you |
know what you want? How can you stand it, not to know?" |
"You see, that鈥檚 what I admire about you, Howard. You always know." |
"Drop the compliments." |
"But I mean it. How do you always manage to decide?" |
"How can you let others decide for you?" |
"But you see, I鈥檓 not sure, Howard. I鈥檓 never sure of myself. I don鈥檛 know |
whether I鈥檓 as good as they all tell me I am. I wouldn鈥檛 admit that to anyone |
but you. I think it鈥檚 because you鈥檙e always so sure that I..." |
"Petey!" Mrs. Keating鈥檚 voice exploded behind them. "Petey, sweetheart! What are |
you doing there?" |
She stood in the doorway, in her best dress of burgundy taffeta, happy and |
angry. |
"And here I鈥檝e been sitting all alone, waiting for you! What on earth are you |
doing on those filthy steps in your dress suit? Get up this minute! Come on in |
the house, boys. I鈥檝e got hot chocolate and cookies ready for you." |
"But, Mother. I wanted to speak to Howard about something important," said |
Keating. But he rose to his feet. |
She seemed not to have heard. She walked into the house. Keating followed. |
Roark looked after them, shrugged, rose and went in also. |
Mrs. Keating settled down in an armchair, her stiff skirt crackling. |
"Well?" she asked. "What were you two discussing out there?" |
Keating fingered an ash tray, picked up a matchbox and dropped it, then, |
ignoring her, turned to Roark. |
"Look, Howard, drop the pose," he said, his voice high. "Shall I junk the |
scholarship and go to work, or let Francon wait and grab the Beaux-Arts to |
impress the yokels? What do you think?" |
Something was gone. The one moment was lost. |
"Now, Petey, let me get this straight..." began Mrs. Keating. |
"Oh, wait a minute, Mother!...Howard, I鈥檝e got to weigh it carefully. It isn鈥檛 |
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everyone who can get a scholarship like that. You鈥檙e pretty good when you rate |
that. A course at the Beaux-Arts--you know how important that is." |
"I don鈥檛," said Roark. |
"Oh, hell, I know your crazy ideas, but I鈥檓 speaking practically, for a man in |
my position. Ideals aside for a moment, it certainly is..." |
"You don鈥檛 want my advice," said Roark. |
"Of course I do! I鈥檓 asking you!" |