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The lies, the weight
Deceit, decay
The lies, the weight
Its clear I lost my way
Deceit, decay
Decomposing
I thought I was an architect, but I was just moving dirt
Stacking mud over malice covered-up forming nothing but a pile of hurt
I hadnt been building
The time was spent digging
Boring the barriers that kept others away
The deeper the walls, the less anyone could hear, hear me fall
So now I know there is no one else to blame
Buried alive inside of my own grave
And theres no one else to blame
Buried alive inside of my own grave
Inside of my own grave
Beneath my lies
Delusional enough to think Id designed something great
Like a giant headstone inscribed to describe my shameful fate
I hadnt been building
The time was spent digging
An ugly truth from which there was no way to escape
Nowhere left to hide and then finally forced to face what Id become
Buried alive inside of my own grave
And theres no one else to blame
Buried alive inside of my own grave
What Id become
Buried alive inside of my own grave
Beneath my pride crushing me
Beneath my lies collapsing
But we are still alive
We are still alive
Buried alive inside of my own grave
And theres no one else to blame
Buried alive inside of my own grave
My own grave
Buried alive inside of my own grave
And theres no one else to blame
The lies and the weight, I know I lost my way
What Id become
Buried alive inside of my own grave
And theres no one else to blame
Buried alive, buried alive
Finally forced to face what Id become
What Id become in my own grave
Buried in my own grave alive |
I refuse to let go of the memories
Cause theyve changed everything inside of me
If I could go back now to save myself the loss
Substanceless character brought back would be the cost
Agony today is tomorrows strength
So dont run away cause misery is
Evolving into something that we cant see
Evolving and becoming, transforming
So dont run away
The pain can never be erased
Remain and turn it into strength, turn it into strength
What do we value in the midst of complacency?
But in despair, we beg for something, anything
Even our mistakes can have the power
To light the way like a glaring tower
The pain can never be erased
Remain and turn it into strength
From our failures, we are refined
Replacing frailty, allowing us to be redefined
Healed scars can be stronger than skin
The wounds we have can be rewritten
Redefined, redefined, redefined
Agony today is tomorrows strength, redefined
So dont run away
The pain can never be erased
The pain can never be erased
Remain and turn it into strength
The pain can never be erased
Remain and turn it into strength
From our failures, we are refined
Replacing frailty, allowing us to be redefined
From our failures we are refined
Replacing frailty, allowing us to be redefined
Dont run away
Miserys evolving |
The wise before me chose to refine themselves
Melt away their shortcomings by enduring trials
A process we will all undertake
Even if we try to prevent change
Face it before you are pulled in
Face it while its still within
Like iron shaped by fire, we arent born this way
Shaped by fire, we are reborn through pain
We arent born, we arent born this way
We are reborn, we are reborn through pain
Though I too have endured fire
I wasnt wise enough to ignite the flame myself
But carried enough fuel for a flicker to excel
Face it before you are pulled in
Face it while its still within
Face it before you are pulled in
Face it while its still within
Shaped by fire, we arent born this way
Shaped by fire, we are reborn through pain
We arent born, we arent born this way
We are reborn through pain
Shaped by fire, we arent born this way
Shaped by fire, we are reborn through pain
Through pain we are reborn, we are reborn through pain
The time has come to watch the fire grow
Find new things to throw in, dont let the flames get low
Ive grown used to the heat that makes me reevaluate
What I carry with me and what should be thrown away
Face it before you are pulled in
Face it while its still within
Like iron shaped by fire, we arent born this way
Shaped by fire, we are reborn through pain
We arent born, we arent born this way
We are reborn through pain
Shaped by fire, we arent born this way
Shaped by fire, we are reborn through pain
We are reborn, we are reborn through pain |
Yeah
Only through struggle have I found rest
With a piece of me taken away
I begin to understand
Hollow out this machine-like chest
With its gears that turn to make me feel
And assembled thoughts that fade away
Only through struggle have I found rest
Only through struggle have I found rest
Remove from me
This deception
That I called love
That I called love
Yeah
With its gears that turn to make me feel
And assembled thoughts that fade away
Remove from me
This deception
That I called love
That I called love
Only through struggle have I found rest
With a piece of me taken away
I begin to understand
I begin to understand
I begin to understand love |
Have you ever been blinded by the pain?
Blinded, blinded by the pain
Unwilling to see, senseless
So blinded by selfishness
Only focusing on myself
And ignoring anyone else
Becoming driven by despair
Feeling trapped into a corner
Losing more and more of reality
Perceiving all the hurt only one-sidedly
Have you ever been blinded by the pain?
Losing yourself inside the heartache
Losing yourself
Feeling too powerless to change
Stuck and unable to escape
Incapable to see another way
I need someone to shake me, to wake me
I dont even need full clarity
Just to start the shift from blind to blurry
Have you ever been blinded by the pain?
Losing yourself inside the heartache
And does that mean we cannot change?
Or will we always be seen that way?
Will we always be seen that way?
And does that really mean we have not changed?
Or does it only mean
The truth is not in how were seen?
But in the actions that were now determined to take
Revealing the new path we chose to mend the heartache
Was it a pattern or a disastrous mistake?
Is the truth in what you see or what I say?
Have you ever been blinded by the pain?
Losing yourself inside the heartache
And does that mean we cannot change?
Or will we always be seen that way?
Be seen that way?
Blinded by pain? Blinded by the pain
And does that really mean we have not changed? |
For so, long I, have felt alone
Content, to live with unrest
Longing, faded, into countless, nights that buried my, weary heart
You brought an end, to this, dead hour
And meaning, to a, a calloused life
Held in Your arms, but too far from my heart
Held in Your arms, but too far from my heart
These thoughts, will carry me
Through the darkest nights
While your eyes rest in
These thoughts, will carry me
Through the darkest nights
While your eyes rest in mine!
I remember the way you looked, at me
And the way you drew, drew me close with one, deep sigh
Scattering pieces of my, my restless mind
Forgetting all, that we, have left, left, behind
We have left behind
We have, left behind
We have left behind
These thoughts, will carry me
Through the darkest nights
While your eyes rest in
These thoughts, will carry me
Through the darkest nights
While your eyes rest in
These thoughts, will carry me
Through the darkest nights
While your eyes rest in
These thoughts, will carry me
Through the darkest nights
While your eyes rest in |
How many years have we waited
For a ship that never set sail?
And how many days have we wasted
Chasing a love that was not our own?
I sat ashore and watched as one
Hopeless wave crashed upon another
While my thoughts ran to the hills
My heart never reached the sea
With only delusions of an endless journey
I am left with an ocean between you and me
An ocean between
Is this your salvation?
Is this all you can give?
I will not stand in reflection
Of someone elses dream
The gate to my heart has been weld shut
With the splendor of my aspirations closed in
How many years have we waited
For a ship that never set sail?
And how many days have we wasted
Chasing a love that was not our own?
Is this your salvation?
Is this your salvation?
Is this all you can give?
I will not stand in reflection
Of someone elses dream
Is this your salvation?
Is this all you can give?
I will not stand in reflection
Of someone elses dream
How many years have we waited
For a ship that never set sail?
How many years have we waited
For a ship that never set sail?
Is this your salvation?
Is this all you can give?
I will not stand in reflection
Of someone elses dream
Is this your salvation?
Is this all you can give?
I will not stand in reflection
Of someone elses dream |
This world was never worthy
But how can I call it unfaithful
Every promise was fulfilled
As decay crawled from its throat
Like the dead rising from an open grave
Like the dead rising
From an open grave
Lips of splendor and tongue of deceit
All dying now as our fragile wrists hold only waste
Like those gasping for their last breath
We cannot hide theres nothing left
Like those gasping for their last breath
We cannot hide theres nothing left
Nothing left
Nothing left
There is nothing left
Nothing left
If all my sorrow has led me here
Then I would cry all of my tears
To have this chance
To have this chance again
To have this chance
To have this chance
And know theres more than this
And know theres more than you
Like those gasping for their last breath
We cannot hide theres nothing left
Like those gasping for their last breath
We cannot hide theres nothing left |
We are all comatose
We are overfed and under, undernourished, yearning for something more
Never starving yet never quite satisfied
Carnal but without useful flesh or mind
I am a walking contradiction thats found consistency
Consuming everything, all without producing sustenance
In the parallels we struggle, struggle to upkeep
There is a better way for us to be set free
From all it is we crave, there must be more to life than to simply stay alive
To simply stay alive
We are not the same as I hope to show
There is a better way if we just let go
We are not, we are not the same
We are not, we are not the same
Let go
In the tension between devouring want or simple need
Its clear the only lines between the ones we preserve
We are not the same as I hope to show
There is a better way if we just let go
We are not, we are not the same
We are not, we are not the same
Let go
We are not the same
And in the parallels we struggle to upkeep
Theres a better way for us to be, for us to be set free
And in the parallels we struggle to upkeep
Theres a better way for us to be, for us to be set free
We are not the same as I hope to show
There is a better way if we just let go
We are not, we are not the same
We are not, we are not the same
Let go
We are not the same |
We have all heard what we wanted to hear
Truth that sounds right to our ears
We have all heard what we wanted to hear
Truth that sounds right to our ears
But what wisdom is there within us
To live based on the feeling of our hearts?
How many times has instinct let us down?
Never to be thought through, never to be questioned!
Say what you really mean
When your ambition calls you, calls you!
For what use is there, is there in praying
If you will only hear what you want to hear?
We have all heard what we wanted to hear
Truth that sounds right to our ears
We speak of fighting to resist this world
But what about the battle within us?
If we have chosen to live against the grain
Then why are we all facing the same way?
There is no difference between us and them
If we all blindly seek truth from sentiments
We have all heard what we wanted to hear
Truth that sounds right to our ears
We have all heard what we wanted to hear
Truth that sounds right to our ears
We have all heard what we wanted to hear
Truth that sounds right to our ears |
That night that I never came home
Wandering souls captured my thoughts
Emptiness filled my mind
Urgency spoke her lies in the confines of these grey walls
I watched them move together
Taking me places I cannot remember
We have been poured out into a loveless bride
How quickly I forget
That this is meaningless
How quickly I forget
That this is meaningless
In a world passing through my fingers
I still chase the wind
How quickly I forget
That this is meaningless
How quickly I forget
That this is meaningless
What have I learned from yesterday
What have I learned from yesterday? |
Pulled both ways, but still suspended
The worst of each, reduced and blended
Still suspended, suspended
I thought I was stuck between two worlds
Because I was not willing to let go
Recklessly pulled both ways
But somehow still suspended
The worst of each, reduced and blended
But as life unfolded, I realized
The momentum to drift from side to side
Came from within, came from inside
I feel torn between two hearts dying, but Ill trade them in for one
Broken and exposed, collapsing, so why would I hold on?
One heart turned black, the other blue and bruised
Arms breaking, arms breaking from the dreams
Dreams shattered, the dreams that I cant reach
There has to be, there has to be a choice I have not seen
I feel torn between two hearts dying, but Ill trade them in for one
Broken and exposed, collapsing, so why would I hold on?
I feel torn between two hearts dying, but Ill trade them in for one
One darkened over time burning away the shame
Erasing hidden insights I did not want to be seen
The other was beaten from being exposed
So it hurt less to never hold it close
I feel torn between two hearts dying, but Ill trade them in for one
Broken and exposed, collapsing, so why would I hold on?
I feel torn between two hearts dying, but Ill trade them in for one
So why would I hold on? Ill trade them in for one
Neither heart had power to fill my veins
Or be the source of who I want to be
Pulled both ways, but still suspended |
Reality no longer battles perception
This letters written to no one
Sincere
I sought your truth and divine purpose
Through myths of revelation
Guidance all wrapped up in a paper box
Supported only so long
As my mind was the enemy
I could not in conscience hold on
As we face distress
We must not lose heart
Stand fast and press on
Triumph awaits
As we face distress
We must not lose heart
Stand fast and press on
Triumph awaits us
The powerful constant that I had once leaned on is no longer there
You call this shameful disbelief
A process like losing my closest friend
As we face distress
We must not lose heart
Stand fast and press on
Triumph awaits
As we face distress
We must not lose heart
Stand fast and press on
Triumph awaits us
Sometimes we have to watch our whole lives fall apart
Before we can rebuild them again
A greater foundation
We watch our whole lives
Sometimes we have to watch our whole lives
Fall apart
Before we can rebuild them again
A greater foundation
I wish there was another way
But no amount of devotion can fix this
Triumph awaits
Triumph awaits
Triumph awaits
Triumph awaits
Triumph awaits
Sometimes we have to watch our whole lives fall apart
Before we can rebuild them again
A greater foundation
Sometimes we have to watch our whole lives
Before we can rebuild them again
A greater foundation |
The life that I sought was already like a jail
Long before I was ever bound
Wrapped up in chains
No one had built the bonds
Use to hold me captive
I had locked away myself in a captain-less ship
Destined to destroy ashore
Destruction was my savior
Crushing collapse
Crashing from the impact
I cant escape the undertow thats pulling me
But I keep fighting to get away
The undertow thats pulling me, pulling me
My control disappeared
Cause it was never real
Aboard a ship with nowhere to go
Guided by lifelessness, a skeleton without a soul
Crushing collapse, looming ahead
Crashing is imminent from the impact
I cant escape the undertow thats pulling me
But I keep fighting to get away
The undertow thats pulling me, pulling me
I cant escape the undertow thats pulling me, pulling me
Though I found freedom when
I stopped fighting everyone else
And loosened up the anchor
That I had tied around myself
I let go of the chains, chains
Just let go of the chains
I let go of the chains used to hold me in
My addictions killing me from within
I cant escape the undertow thats pulling me
But I keep fighting to get away
The undertow thats pulling me, pulling me
I cant escape the undertow thats pulling me
But I keep fighting to get away
The undertow thats pulling me, pulling me
Just let go of the chains, chains
I let go of the chains used to hold me in my addiction |
The wreckage seemed too great for me
I saw my dreams collapsing, collapsing
But through debris, the tragedy
Not one of us died fighting
The wreckage
We somehow found a way through storming weather
Enduring skies turned grey when we all said never
The winds, the rain
Downpour needed to cultivate
We dont get to choose when it rains
We can fight or just get washed away
Will we be transformed or
Feel like were drowning, drowning?
The wreckage
So use the storms ahead to flood out shortcomings
And then use what is left to water what is worth planting
The winds, the rain
Downpour needed to cultivate
Debris, tragedy
But not one of us died, but not one of us died fighting
We dont get to choose when it rains
We can fight or just get washed away
Will we be transformed or
Feel like were drowning?
Will we fight or just get washed away?
And now the mountains that we face are starting to look more like hills
We rose to a higher plain so the whole horizon fell
It fell, the whole horizon fell
Through the debris of tragedy
Not one of us died fighting, fighting
We dont get to choose when it rains
We can fight or just get washed away
Will we be transformed or
Feel like were drowning?
We dont get to choose when it rains
We can fight or just get washed away
Will we be transformed or
Feel like were drowning?
The wreckage that once seemed insurmountable to me
Is now becoming a part of rebuilding
We somehow found a way through storming weather
Enduring skies turned grey when we all said never
So use the storms ahead to flood out shortcomings
And then use what is left to water what is worth planting
Deep roots that refuse, deep roots that refuse
Deep roots that refuse, that refuse to break
Deep roots that refuse, refuse to break
Deep roots that refuse to break |
I took what you gave me, destroyed it all
I had to lose everything to know that I was wrong
And now I see what was true all along
A void in me, now that everything is gone
Now that everything is gone
The emptiness can be a source of clarity
Taking away a way for us to hide, always revealing
No choice but to rebuild, no voice, no peace, no love, no home
Nothing left to hold, nothing left but hope
Take my broken frame
What still remains free from the chains, free from the chains
Nothing left to hold, nothing left but hope
Like hunting for prey that we dont even need to track
So easy to follow whats next, we are left with only one path, one path
No choice but to rebuild, no voice, no peace, no love, no home
Nothing left but hope
Take my broken frame
What still remains free from the chains, free from the chains
Take whats left in me, whats worth saving
No matter how much time it takes
From merely hope, we are brought back to life
From broken bones, we revive
Take whats left and create
Take whats left and then rebuild
You had every reason to give up on me
But you stood and waited when everyone ran away
I took your gifts, destroyed them all
And then lost everything to know that I was wrong
But you still carried me when you could barely walk
You reminded me I was never too far gone
Take my broken frame
What still remains free from the chains, free from the chains
Take whats left in me, whats worth saving
No matter how much time it takes
Take my broken frame
What still remains free from the chains, free from the chains
Take whats left
Take whats left and rebuild |
Forever your eyes will hold the memory
I saw your heart as it overtook me
We tried so hard to understand and reason
But in that one moment I gave my heart away
I gave my heart away
In that moment I gave my heart away
In that moment I gave my heart away
With that perfect breath where my mind lay beside me
And all I knew is what had overtaken me
With no reason I am comforted by inability to understand
Forever your eyes will hold the memory
I saw your heart as it overtook me
We tried so hard to understand and reason
But in that one moment I gave my heart away
I gave my heart away
In that moment I gave my heart away
In that moment I gave my heart away
Forever your eyes will hold the memory
Forever your eyes will hold the memory
Forever your eyes will hold the memory
When I wake from this dream
Will your smile still open my heart
And leave me transparent?
When I wake from this dream
Will your smile still open my heart
And leave me transparent? |
Youve lost touch
Youve lost touch with the outcasts
Have you forgotten your own past?
Have you forgotten that your house is made of glass?
So while youre pointing your fingers
You are unable to use your hands
To help with solving
Solving real and present problems
Cause were appealing
And youve become too perfect to understand
Youre a gatekeeper
Blocking the entrance to nowhere
Youre a gatekeeper
Trying to keep others in despair, yeah
Trying to keep others in despair
I dont want you to get dirty reaching down to a lowly creature
I dont want you to show mercy and make me like you, self-righteous preacher
Did you think you were the only one
The only one who held the keys?
Did you hope that your judgement would
Spread just like a disease?
Youre a gatekeeper
Blocking the entrance to nowhere
Youre a gatekeeper
Trying to keep others in despair
The self-importance of the moral elite
To think that their approval means anything, yeah
So eager to capitalize
Capitalize on other peoples pain
But when the healing begins
So quick to turn away
Have you forgotten?
Have you forgotten your own past?
Youre a gatekeeper
Blocking the entrance to nowhere
Youre a gatekeeper
Keeping others in despair |
I never wanted and I never cared before
I never wanted and I never cared before
Take it back, this is a new day
I never wanted and I never cared before
Take it back, this is...
How I long to regress
To the days before I took upon myself
The obsessions of this world
A day of innocence equating beauty
And tomorrow may fall
And today is already gone
Tomorrow may fall
Today is already gone
Take it back, this is a new day
I never wanted, this is a new day
And I never cared before
I never wanted, I never wanted
And I never cared before
Ive grown tired of chasing
Convinced I was in need
And now the years Ive spent
Only a slave to this
Tomorrow may fall
And today is already gone
I will no longer adore
These things that will never satisfy me
Ive seen my world change
And then go back to where it came
In this vicious circle we are all brought back to life only to die
In this vicious circle we are all brought back to life only to die
To die
In this vicious circle
We are all
Brought back to life
Only to die
In this vicious circle
We are all
Brought back to life
Only to die
Ive seen my world change
And then go back to where it came |
94 hours of regret
For me to realize what I held
Unfading beauty, not just a face
I held its innocence within my heart
Go!
Now I wont let go
I wont let go
I wont let go
I wont let go
I wont let go
The torment of your eyes
Has awakened my soul
The torment of your eyes
Has awakened my soul
The pain of a moments time
Will forever beg your forgiveness
Forgiveness
94 hours
For me to realize
I held the unfading beauty
I held your innocence |
Theres a sentence they gave me
Then one that remains unchanging
Like skin thats burnt by frost, itll peel if I pull away
It hurts to hold or let go as Im trying to sustain
Like feeling hunger pangs and eating bone to stay alive
It tears me apart inside‚ but it seems like the better way to get by
Like a broken hourglass‚ they fell
Cutting sand through my fingers down the deepest well
I know the toll it takes‚ but I wont let you go
The past I cant replace is all that youll ever know
There is no turning back, I cant fix what I broke
The past I cant replace is all that youll ever know
Youre a part of me that I may never be able to repair
Like a lung thats collapsed, Ill always know that youre still there
Always surrounding my heart even if it rejects air
I know the toll it takes‚ but I wont let you go
The past I cant replace is all that youll ever know
There is no turning back, I cant fix what I broke
The past I cant replace is all that youll ever know
The true sentence I still face is one I brought upon myself
Lost in a dark cell
They said its easiest just to numb yourself and let go
But these open wounds will forever feel fresh
And I refuse to let them close yet
I know the toll it takes, but I wont let you go
The past I cant replace is all that youll ever know
There is no turning back‚ I cant fix what I broke
The past I cant replace is all that youll ever know
I know the toll it takes, but I wont let you go |
The worst form of illness is one that goes undiagnosed
Subtle decay secretly spread a cancer of the soul
A cancer, a cancer of the soul
We are all dying‚ some of us just faster than our friends
But pointing to a greater fault wont cure what we have hidden
I used to be able to pretend‚ but I can no longer hide from who I am
My deceit was displayed for all to see
The only thing that couldve saved me
Only after weve fallen
Can we then find the cure
Looking up from the bottom
When dust settles‚ its clear
When the dust settles, its clear
Its so easy to believe that you are nothing like me
Cause your deceit is lesser and yet to be seen
But doesnt that change what youre hiding?
Only after weve fallen
Can we find the cure
Looking up from the bottom
When dust settles, its clear
Only after weve fallen
Can we then find the cure
Looking up from the bottom
When dust settles‚ its clear
Only after weve fallen
Can we then find cure
We are all dying
A cancer of the soul
We are all dying
A cancer of the soul
A heart that is bound by snakes with a mind that sprouting wings
A dangerous combination that fails to address our infection
My deceit was displayed for all to see
The only thing that could have saved me
Only after weve fallen
Can we then find the cure
Looking up from the bottom
When dust settles, its clear
Only after weve fallen
Can we then find the cure
Looking up from the bottom
When dust settles, its clear
Only after weve fallen
We are all dying
But will we find the cure?
Only after we have fallen
Looking up from the bottom
It seems so clear |
Ive looked straight into your eyes
And turned my head for the last time
Because I was scared
To leave these walls in ruin like
The fate of those who trust
In themselves, we are
Alone and afraid
I know you are the one weve left behind
Yet somehow we are the ones who are alone
Youre the one weve left behind
Youre the one weve left be-
I will no longer turn my head
I will never forget you
You are the one weve left behind
You are the forsaken
Weve built our confidence
On broken dreams now left for dead
Yet weve been condemned
To chase these dreams that never end
I know you are the one weve left behind
Yet somehow we are the ones who are alone
Youre the one weve left behind
Youre the one weve left be-
I will no longer turn my head
I will never forget you
You are the one weve left behind
You are the forsaken
I will no longer turn my head
I will never forget you
You are the one weve left behind
You are the forsaken
Our selfishness consumes us until the whole world
Is not enough, forgive the day that I erased
That I erased your name, that I erased your name
For its the memory of me that will decay
I know you are the forsaken
Somehow we are the ones who feel alone
I know you are the forsaken
Somehow we are the ones who feel alone |
All we can do is heal
Or let it destroy us
Some of our wounds
Come from those around us
While some are self-inflicted
By thorns growing from within
But the story remains the same
Once we carry the hurt and shame
All we can do is heal
Or let it destroy us
The wounds that we’re left with
We cannot control
The curse of the pain
Feels like all we know
Until we find the strength
Drawn from the roots below
In blackened soil nеw power grows
New power grows
Sеntenced to a lesser life
For what we’ve been through?
Or growing in ways that we
Never thought possible before?
Cutting off what can’t survive
So we can let our weakness die
The wounds that we’re left with
We cannot control
The curse of the pain
Feels like all we know
Until we find the strength
Drawn from the roots below
In blackened soil new power grows
Regeneration comes after death
And virtue from rooting out damage
Cut off what can’t survive
The wounds that we’re left with
We cannot control
The curse of the pain
Feels like all we know
Until we find the strength
Drawn from the roots below
In blackened soil new power grows
Until we find the strength
Drawn from the roots below
In blackened soil new power grows
New power grows |
Now this is who we are, I am no one
I am no ones hero, I am no one
For we are not the giant men
That some may think
You are faithful when we are not
So Id like to tell this story
The way it is meant to be
Without the burden thats in our hearts
None of us would have ever found You
For You are faithful when we are not
You began a work
That only you can complete
Now this is who we are
Ill never know the answers
And Ill always wonder why
Now this is who we are
Ill never know the answers
And Ill always wonder why
Why were given grace well never deserve
And a second chance that we will never earn
For there is nothing I can do to save myself
For there is nothing I can do
Now this is who we are
Ill never know the answers
And Ill always wonder why
Now this is who we are
Ill never know the answers
And Ill always wonder why
And Ill always
And Ill always wonder why
Now this is who we are
Ill never know the answers
And Ill always wonder why
But You have let me start again
Id rather be called weak
Than die thinking I was strong |
Will I ever escape?
Can we ever change?
Will I ever escape?
Can we ever change?
Will I ever escape?
Can we ever change? |
I have traveled so far to find so little
Meaning in tragedy or tragedy
In the search for meaning
Dark clouds have lead me here
Confined freedom
Guides us to security
What if everything
I have been taught is a lie
And all of my teachers
Have been wrong this whole time
Compelling us to fight
The battles they would not
They have already won
And we have already lost
If we do not learn from their mistakes
We have already lost
We have already lost
If we do not learn to change |
None of this matters, none of these words
Common and silent we will die in this world
Weve only spoken to those who agree
And without them weve fallen on deaf ears
Stand on conviction and you will walk alone
For once I have stood , no one will know
But alone I was born and alone we must go
In my convictions, Ive found my own grave
But amongst the dead, we all fade away
Yet solitude is better than a life not worthy of reaction
There is nothing to lose
So we stand alone or join those who follow in misery
In my convictions Ive found my own grave
But amongst the dead we all fade away
In my convictions Ive found my own grave
But amongst the dead we all fade away
Fade away
Stand on conviction and youll walk alone
A voice is only a noise without someone to hear
And without a crowd to feed that noise grows silent
For once I have stood, no one will know
But alone I was born and alone we must go
Fading back into an anodyne sea
To drown with all whove gone before me
We must go
In my convictions Ive found my own grave
But amongst the dead we all fade away
In my convictions , Ive found my own grave
But amongst the dead we all fade away
Stand on conviction and youll walk alone, yeah
Fading back into an anodyne sea
To drown with all whove gone before me
Fading back, fading
Fading back into an anodyne sea
Fading back, fading
Fading back, fading away |
Go!
The truth of my heart
Is like a repressed tale
A censored and silenced story
Repression or restraint
It is a delicate balance
Between bleeding out what will make me drown
And closing in what I cannot afford to spill
Either way, I must cauterize, cauterize the open wound
Im caught between the feeling
Of being pulled apart
Or stuffed into a cell
Im caught between the feeling
Of being pulled apart
Or stuffed into a cell
And if these are the only options
This will be always be hell
Never ending
Though I still may be breathing
There is no quality of life
So I choose to risk it all for you
For you to be by my side
Im caught between the feeling
Of being pulled apart
Or stuffed into a cell
Im caught between the feeling
Of being pulled apart
Or stuffed into a cell
A crowd is easy to deceive
But now I am a patient on the table
Ill give you the knife
Cut away as you see fit
Just promise me the patience
To wait for me to heal
Im caught between the feeling
Of being pulled apart
Or stuffed into a cell
Im caught between the feeling
Of being pulled apart
Or stuffed into a cell
Im caught between the feeling
Of being pulled apart
Or stuffed into a cell |
All these moments of pain
Must add up to something
Our bodies have been trained to keep it all in
But our hearts still hold on
Some say to release it, forget about your past
Instead we count the cost, its part of us
That doesnt mean that we cannot move on
Its just a memory of what we once were
No matter what it is weve faced
Its now part of us
We can overcome
Why rid of fuel that can make us stronger
When properly put behind us?
And in the same way that everything good in life
Can be taken away, so can all this pain
No matter what it is weve faced
Its now part of us
No matter what weve faced in this life
We can overcome
Trying to forget is a burden we can never bear
When facing trials openly
Theres nothing left to hide
New paths of strength come alive
Theres nothing left to hide
New paths of strength come alive
We can overcome
No matter what it is weve faced
Its now part of us
No matter what weve faced in this life
We can overcome |
Defender
Fighting so hard to be heard
Yet having nothing to say
You talk about changing masses
But forget those close to you
Most of us have given up
On these words that all sound the same
But I am still willing to believe
If you have done all that you can
You can justify almost anything
If you are willing to be loud enough
But once youve spent everything
To change the world around you
Even if your voice is taken away
Such actions will still inspire
Most of us have given up
On these words that all sound the same
But I am still willing to believe
If you have done all that you can
Drained
Spent
Determined
Intent
Now youve earned the right to be heard
Weve been deceived by elegant speech
Whose only concern is mere distraction
Defender
Drained
Spent
Determined
Intent
Now youve earned the right to be heard
I will follow to the grave
A man whos willing to die
Most of us have given up
On these words that all sound the same
But I am still willing to believe
If you have done all that you can
I am willing to die
Defender |
If music is a mirror revealing
The depths of my heart, then I will write
The darkest song
For without forgiveness, my soul is lost
All that is hope within destruction
Comes from you for I have fallen
All that is hope within destruction
Comes from you for I have fallen, fallen
All that is hope within destruction
Comes from you
For I have fallen and there is nothing good
Within me, yet Ive been given life
I will, I will never deserve
For without forgiveness
For without forgiveness, my soul is lost
All that is hope within destruction
All that is hope within destruction
All that is hope within destruction
All that is hope within destruction
All that is hope
All that is hope
All that is hope
All that is hope |
Like a swarm of flies colliding with a moving windshield
So are our lives on this never-ending road
I have left behind my mark only to later be washed away
And was consumed with the allure despite the inevitable decay
When did the road that Im on become my only home?
When did this become the one place I truly know?
A journey making us like weeds
Where the wind steals our splendor
But spreads it to the distant fields
Despite our fragile imperfections
Yet shaking walls and wearing wheels
Can never capture my heart the way you do
When did the road that Im on become my only home?
When did this become the one place I truly know?
When did the road that Im on become my only home?
When did this become the one place I truly know?
I am missing what makes me whole
I am missing what makes me whole
I am missing what makes me whole
When did the road that Im on become my only home?
When did this become the one place I truly know?
When did the road that Im on become my only home?
When did this become the one place I truly know?
When did the road that Im on become my only home?
When did this become the one place I truly know? |
Ive tried to find reconciliation behind the walls of those whose hatred burns
For I find it easier to reach someone who still feels
Than to make amends with passionless apathy
Where all lines are the same a portrait cannot be made
I need to burn inside
I need to know that you are alive
I need to know that feelings of discontent
Are stronger than indifference for those too weak to stand
Like a colorless sky over a sea of nothingness
Hatred faces its enemies while apathy strikes furtively
I need to burn inside
I need to know that you are alive
I need to know that feelings of discontent
Are stronger than indifference for those too weak to stand
I need to know that feelings of discontent
Are stronger than indifference for those too weak to stand
Until our anger burns against injustice
We will create the faceless by dismissing those forced to concede
Many of us have turned off the light outside, erasing what exists beyond our front door
And for you I find it harder to reach common ground than my most glaring opposition
But what about those whove lost the luxury of choice?
Striving for identity, buried by our lack of interest, souls marked as mere history
How much grievance will it take to awaken us?
I need to know that feelings of discontent
Are stronger than indifference for those too weak to stand
I need to know that feelings of discontent
Are stronger than indifference for those too weak to stand
How much grievance will it take to awaken us from the comfort of our homes?
The comfort of our oversized graves
Ive tried to find reconciliation
Ive tried to find reconciliation |
The contingencies of another day unravel my senses
And now your distance is darkness
And now your distance is darkness
My hope has been beset by your absence
I decay from inside, from inside
There is love, there is love, there is love
There is love
In the world there is love, there is love, there is love |
Your resilience inspires me
Facing tragedies I will never face
Your presence is humbling
To think of all that you have overcome
It took such little pain
For our lives to coalesce
Finding what I couldve found in no one else
You bring me through the darkness of myself
And show me that frailty can be turned to strength
Suffering
Persistence
Such sorrow
Yet resilience
From the outside Ive deceived the world
With false bravery
Yet you have taught me so much more
Much more than I can ever teach
And someday you might need
Someone to lean on
I can only hope that Ill have gained the courage
To be there for you in whatever you face
You bring me trough
The darkness of myself
And show me that frailty
Can be turned to strength
Suffering
Persistence
Such sorrow
Yet resilience
Suffering
Persistence
Such sorrow
Yet resilience
At times Im carried on the shoulders of a child
I find power in your firm fallibility
My source of hope is seeing that weak prevail
And Im better able to live because youre alive
I could not imagine a world without you
Where I looked you in the eyes and left you to die
Suffering
Persistence
Such sorrow
Yet resilience |
Whether locked up or on top of the world
I felt the same sense of unrest
Pursuing numbers
The approval of others
Outward illusions of success
Just an illusion
An illusion masking restlessness
All ending in a downward spiral
Rock bottom is all relative
Some people lose their homes
And others lose their heart
The sad truth is i lost them both
‘cause i perilously chose
To compromise my soul
I could not see past all the distraction
Until everything to hide behind...
Until everything to hide behind was gone
Now that everything is gone
I’m free, free to see without distraction
There’s nowhere left to hide
As I face what is inside
What is inside
Now changing like the tide
Devoid of peace but now finding
What brings serenity
And what can be centering
But it’s not the things it used to be
Because they have been taken
And cannot be retrieved
Now that everything to hide behind
Until everything to hide behind was gone
Now that everything is gone
I’m free, free to see without distraction
There’s nowhere left to hide
As I face what is inside
What is inside
What is left
When you take it all away ?
A battle between desolation and sorrow
Leaving behind destruction or strength
Destruction or strength
Destruction or strength
Whether locked up or on top of the world
I felt the same sense of unrest
But now it’s gone
Now that everything is gone
I’m free, free to see without distraction
There’s nowhere left to hide
As I face what is inside
What is inside
Whether locked up or on top of the world
I felt the same sense of unrest
But now it’s gone
Just an illusion
An illusion masking restlessness |
The storm is coming and I have a choice
To accept nature or lose my voice
Shall I scream and plead for nothing
Or build a roof over my head?
I mourn the days that I wasted
Trying to change what has been set
Fighting against myself
Before I tear, tear out my eyes
Ill just admit theyre part of me
Before I tear, tear out my eyes
Ill just admit theyre part of me
Ive labelled enemies who do not hate me
And then claimed friends who could care less
All an unnecessary struggle
So now I know what it means to repent
Changing everything
Before I tear, tear out my eyes
Ill just admit theyre part of me
Before I tear, tear out my eyes
Ill just admit theyre part of me
Theyre part of me
Theyre part of me
Ill just admit theyre part of me
Instead of fighting against myself
I will open my eyes
To find who needs me
I am awakened
I am awakened
Before I tear, tear out my eyes
Ill just admit theyre part of me
Before I tear, tear out my eyes
Ill just admit theyre part of me
Theyre part of me
Ill just admit theyre part of me
I am awakened
Ill just admit theyre part of me |
(This is what I am
This is what I have become
Repeating yesterday
Drain me of my very essence
To form again what lasts
This is what I am
This is what I have become
Repeating yesterday
Drain me of my very essence)
This is what I am
This is what I have become
What is love without
What is love without
My tears hold no weight if my commitment is only failure
Each day I,
Repeating yesterday
Each day I am born again to be
A child in the eyes of love
Repeating yesterday
Repeating
Drain me of my very essence
To form again
To form again what lasts
This is what I am
This is what I have become
What is love without
What is love without... |
Many choose to find their hope in the thoughts of afterlife
When there is none to be found right here before we die
So I understand the feeling of helplessness
When we are just taught to wait here, wait here for death
Wait here for death
Wait for this suffering to end
Wait here for death, wait here for death
Wait for this suffering to end
We are not forgotten, for a kingdom is offered beyond that of golden streets
We can represent now what will one day be complete
Simplicity is not a curse where strength is humbled
And the powerless rise
This is a kingdom born upside-down
This is a kingdom where the broken are crowned
Wait here for death, wait here for death
The blessings of excess are only a burden on us
It is a broken system where we just wait for death
It is a broken system where suffering can never end
Simplicity is not a curse where strength is humbled
And the powerless rise
This is a kingdom born upside-down
This is a kingdom where the broken are crowned, the broken are crowned
If helplessness is our system then were better off upside-down |
Can
Can we die to live an other day?
How could we lose sight of what matters most
Trying to love what cannot love us back
All we have is not worth living for if we do not know when to let go
What is this life that we cling to it so tight
Afraid that it will take from us
These fading sentiments
Can we die
Can we die to live another day
Can we die to live another day
Can we die to live another day
What is this life that we cling to it so tight
Afraid that it will take from us
These fading sentiments
How could we lose sight of what matters most
Trying to love what cannot love us back
All we have is not worth living for if we do not know when to let go
How could we lose sight of what matters most
Trying to love what cannot love us back
All we have is not worth living for if we do not know when to let go |
I can only imagine that wrath is being held out
So that there will be time for us to be redeemed
But surely wrath is not being held out
So that we may redeem ourselves
For Ive seen the madness of those who died trying
But is regret only a word that the living possess?
I long to see their faces
Regardless of the decay
For in the eyes of the deceased
We would see hope in our last day inside this dying world
For there is still, for there is still beauty inside this dying world
For what good is there holding off wrath
If we are determined to bring wrath upon ourselves
We would see hope in our last day inside this dying world
For there is still, for there is still beauty inside this dying world
We would see hope in our last day inside this dying world
For there is still, for there is still beauty inside this dying world |
I want to bring You all that is in my heart
I want to give You my everything
But Ive failed You so many times
How can I stand here, how I can stand here before You
How can I stand here before You
When I begin to steal
What only belongs to You
What only belongs to You
I am able to bring You
Nothing that isnt already Yours
Im so ashamed
Im so ashamed of what I ever called my own
Take what I have
Take these broken remains
What can I give to You
That You dont already deserve
You laid down Your life
When I refused to give mine |
I laid the night before me
Unraveled the tangles of my heart
All I felt was stale hollow air
These streams of uncertainty
They are collapsing upon my mind
Upon my mind
Torrents fill my veins until I burst
With mistaken guilt and shame
My battered bones
Try to keep fighting
Against the endless ocean of self defeat
As time goes on
Some months are yet to pass
As time goes on
Some months are yet to pass
As time goes on
Some months are yet to pass
Are yet to pass
Lets go
Puddle puddles of ink
Surround this tired chair
All of my sorrow has been spilled
Into into my reflection
Reflection |
All along it was me who changed
Morning now waits for me
All along it was me
Morning now waits
Morning now waits for me
What I have to gain does not matter
If what I give is all to You
If what I give is all to You
I have seen the stars fall
And the sun rise again
But You are yet to change
You are all that is
You are all that is worth
You are all that is worth living for
What I have to gain does not matter
If what I give is all to You
If what I give is all to You
All along it is was
It is was me who changed |
There are days when sorrow seems never-ending
Like the countless roads upon which Ive driven
The price of attachment in pursuit of dreams
That I so often cant seem to remember
Yet there are days when beauty cannot be contained
It even crawls out from under ordinary things
A foreigner, no place to go
Holding on, making the most
Of what little time I have
All the wasted words I said
In all the cities that I left
The last act of our precious play
Must not close with regret
I will not leave wishing I had done things differently
The moments I treasure are seldom the ones that I planned for
And if I knew where pain hid I might still let it go
So when the audience has run toward the latest drift
It will be my time to face the life that I have set
A foreigner in my own home
Holding on, no place to go
All the wasted words I said
In all the cities that I left
The last act of our precious play
Must not close with regret, regret
All the wasted words
Some days the line between peace and pain
Seems more like a blur, but I know with certainty
I cant leave wishing, I cannot leave
I cant leave wishing Id done things differently
All the wasted words I said
In all the cities that I left
The last act of our precious play
Must not close with regret, regret
All the wasted words |
Each little piece begins to stack up
Now suffering under the weight of my choices
And I hardly recognize myself
Somewhere along the line
There stopped being lines at all
Whispering silence
The subtle contradiction
Compromise creeps in
Forgetting who I once was
Slowly changing
Who I once was
Each moment seemed so small
When looked at by itself
But it adds up
And it has torn me down
All lines are gone
Whispering silence
The subtle contradiction
Compromise creeps in
Forgetting who I once was
Slowly changing
Who I once was
So close the truth
But still impossible
It was never one thing
And too many to try to add up
Fueled by faint deception
Conflict without acknowledging opposition
All because I had taken pride in my hidden lies
Whispering silence
The subtle contradiction
Compromise creeps in
Forgetting who I once was
Slowly changing
Who I once was
It was never one thing
And too many to try to add up
All because I had taken pride in my hidden lies |
Rah!
You sat and watched as I nearly destroyed myself
Never had I felt so betrayed
That you would sacrifice my life
For no more than your comfort
And now your love means nothing
Nothing to me
Your love means nothing to me
Nothing to me
Nothing to me
You are a coward, the antithesis of a friend
Take action before there is no one left to defend
For I would have stood by you
For I would have stood by you
Right to the gates of hell
For I would have stood by you
Right to the gates of hell
Right to the gates of hell |
I fought who I am inside
Until I wanted, I wanted to die
Instead of finding balance I found hatred
Consumed by failures and ignoring my own strengths
Pushed out to sea without learning to swim
Or stranded in the desert with no lungs to breathe
With no lungs to breathe
I had almost lost everything
With no lungs to breathe
I had almost lost everything
How can I be expected to readily be content
With a view of life that has rejected
The basis of what has helped me to survive?
And replaced them with precepts
Rather than instruction
Full rule is an illusion
All I can do is contain selfishness
And unveil what little power we may have
With no lungs to breathe
I had almost lost everything
With no lungs to breathe
I had almost lost everything
Tearing away my flesh
Before taking the time to understand it
A miracle may not be the answer
When anchoring first on what I have
The ability to change
Like being stranded in the desert
With no lungs to breathe
With no lungs to breathe
I had almost lost everything
With no lungs to breathe
I had almost lost everything |
Did you ever see me?
Or could you even see at all?
I looked at your cold white face
So still, so empty
Yet I knew you were at rest
I knew you were at rest
Much more comforted than I
What else could I find to replace who you were?
It was the carefree unrestricted love that
You never meant to give
You never had the choice
You never meant to give
You never had the choice
It was your innocence
It was part of who you were
What else could I find to replace who you were?
It was the carefree unrestricted love that
You never meant to give
You never had the choice
You never meant to give
You never had the choice
It was your innocence
It was part of who you were
It was your innocence
It was the comfort of a friend
It was your innocence
It was part of who you were
It was your innocence
It was the comfort of a friend |
What we see now is only a fraction
Bound to learn the hard way
This is the human condition
There is nothing that can be said
To stop us from making mistakes
When I look to myself as a source of ending pain
No matter how many times before Ive failed
It seems our problems solve themselves
When we look beyond us to those truly in hell
The more I focus on myself
Then the more helpless that I become
So why not erase this point of view?
My suffering is trivial
Beyond our suffering
Compared to those who know real agony
It seems our problems solve themselves
When we look beyond us to those truly in hell
It seems our problems solve themselves
When we look beyond our suffering
It seems our problems solve themselves
When we look beyond our suffering
My trials seem insignificant now
Why wont we look beyond us?
Why wont we look beyond our despair?
It seems our problems solve themselves
When we look to those truly in hell
Personal redemption cannot change the world
Unless we lay down our lives for those who still suffer |
What is certain I have ignored
I have spent most of my life trying to complicate everything that I believe
So that while paralyzed in thought I will always have an alibi
Just another excuse, just another excuse to hesitate, to hesitate
Delaying true progress with passivity
The answers that Ive found are all the same
They uncover questions that still remain
The answers that Ive found are all the same
They uncover questions that still remain
What is certain I have ignored
And what I know is simple if I am honest with myself:
My soul is broken, yet easily fixed
And what I know is simple:
I must die if I truly want to live
The answers that Ive found are all the same
They uncover questions that still remain
The answers that Ive found, Ive found are all the same
They uncover questions that still remain
The greatness of us have become the least
I must be reborn to revive a heart that hardly beats, keeping alive this hollow frame
I must be reborn, I must be reborn |
I see now, I see through the veil of expectation
I see now, I see that conformity is betrayal
Betrayal of those who are forgotten, yet vision alone furthers our blame
Unless followed by transformation, it is pointless to be given sight
Without the hope of our reaction, we overlook the purpose of our eyes
Now is our chance to breathe without tyranny, released from the blinding of false light
Now is our chance to breathe without tyranny. In weakness, we are freed
I see now, I see that conformity is betrayal
With empty eyes Ive looked ahead , with clarity I now look back
Now is our chance to breathe without tyranny, released from the blinding of false light
Now is our chance to breathe without, without tyranny
In weakness, we are freed. Yeah!
I admit my failure. Opacity has dulled my senses
Conformity controlled by lifeless vices. Oh! Yeah!
Covetousness disguised as ambition
But now it ends
But now it ends
But now it ends
But now it ends
Not with defeat but determination. We are freed. Yeah!
Now is our chance to breathe without tyranny, released from the blinding of false light
Now is our chance
Now is our chance
In weakness, we are freed |
White shutters enclose
The boundaries of my heart
I hold my breath
Till the steady beating is shut out
In silence I wait for what is real
For I know the truth of my perceptions
Nothing in life matters more
More than You
Matters more
More than You
When first feelings fade
I will still be here
I hold my breath
Till the steady beating is shut out
Beating is
For I know the truth of my perceptions
Nothing in life matters more
More than You
Matters more
More than You
When first feelings fade
I will still be here |
The sound of silent voices
Surveying my thoughts
Regularity defining perfection
Neither sorrow
Nor contentment
Whispering emptiness
Whispering emptiness
Frail words collapse
My weight only stirs the ground
How long can I hold your hand
As you walk over graves?
You search for tears
Of compassion
Yet find the comfort of winter
You found the comfort
Reassurance dead like the falling leaves
Losing hope in your unchanging ways
All of my strength cant save you
If you are unwilling to help yourself |
Can you understand my meaning
Hidden in the roses, around my eyes
I want you to know how much it means to have you in my life
Your love brings me close again
In this instance, this single moment when our worlds collide
The wire of eternity twists around us
I can feel this river rising, moving up my back
Some things never change, some things never go away
Some things never change, some things never go away
I could never forget you, and I will never be the same
I could never forget you, and I will never be the same
You
Some things never change, some things never go away
I could never forget you, and I will never be the same |
Ive watched them build
Upon these empty hearts
Ive watched them build
Upon these empty hearts
False hopes of lossless paradise
Gathering together
The dead hearts beat as one
Stillborn comfort feeding lies
Through answers of self denial
Divided between a dissolute self
And the sorrow of sincere devotion
Devotion
What is it that you find peace in now
Where is your hope in this dark night?
What is it that you find peace in now
Where is your hope in this dark night? |
We live in slavery to a past we cannot escape
And I say its worth it to just start again
Again
Weve focused so long on ideals of freedom
That it is this very belief that oppresses us
We all want to be free, yet we find ways to forfeit liberty
To our own impulses, to our own consumption
So I say its worth it to build a new foundation
A new foundation, a new foundation, a new foundation
Its a past we cannot escape
This vacancy will take everything this world can offer
But what is control once we have let go of all we suffer?
Once weve let go
When weve awakened to admit we are all enslaved
Then there is freedom in our choice to disobey
Our creeds have become a justification
To live the way that some see fit
And no one is more hopeless than those blinded by the scales of content
This vacancy will take everything this world can offer
But what is control once we have let go of all we suffer?
We live in slavery to a past we cannot escape
So I say its worth it to just start again
Weve let go
Weve let go
Weve let go
This vacancy will take everything this world can offer
But what is control once we have let go of all we suffer?
We cant escape, we cant escape
We cant escape, we cant escape
So I say its worth it to start again |
If we chase acclaim in search for, search for stature
Then our status becomes a vacuum draining
Opulence is a myth for there is no final rest
Change in circumstance only delays
The inescapable fact that we are downcast
In looking to the end weve lost sight of where to begin
Hope lies not in reaching, reaching the end
If the journey itself is enough to bring fulfillment
Without conclusion this song will end
Without conclusion there is no final rest
Without conclusion, shred
We are void of purpose before we start
For in chasing our destination the present state is sacrificed, sacrificed
In looking to, in looking to the end we have lost sight of where to begin
Weve lost, we have lost sight of where to begin
Without conclusion this song will end
Without conclusion there is no final rest
Without conclusion this song will end
Without conclusion there is no final rest
Without conclusion this song will end
Without conclusion |
Condemned
Without given a chance to speak
Without acknowledgment
Theyre made less than human
Condemned
Condemned to anonymity
Trapped by
Trapped by obscurity
Condemned
Condemned to anonymity
Sentenced
Sentenced to neglect
They will never share our blood
Yet is that reason
To drain whats left of theirs
Abandoning compassion
Condemned
Condemned to anonymity
Trapped by
Trapped by obscurity
Condemned
Condemned to anonymity
Sentenced
Sentenced to neglect
Why do we uphold allegiance
Higher than maintaining life?
The ties of blood breaking a stronger bind
Condemned
Condemned to anonymity
Trapped by
Trapped by obscurity
Condemned
Condemned to anonymity
Sentenced
Sentenced to neglect |
One night opens wounds and words utter pain
The truth cannot breathe a one in your soul
Youve hid hearts and songs as long as you recall
His kind words just fall near your feet
With their last air, all they wanted is to be heard
In your sweet ears just once |
Just like the spread of disease
Debt and guilt or guilt and decree, the masters that we please
Yet if we seek help for infirmities, we are made twice the sons of hell as before
Reach out your hand
Reach out your hand, only to be plagued by disease
Reach out your hand
Reach out your hand, only to be plagued by disease
While religion tries to blame what we cannot see, I accept that part of the problem is me
It was never a sacred mandate to accept conformity
Through select revelations that we choose to believe
Another blind guide replacing divine eyes
Familiarity is the great deception
Disguised by authority, sealing out subversion
Whitewashed tombs have hidden the truth, for we unknowingly worship icons of ordinary life
Reach out your hand to find forgiveness
Only to be plagued by disease
The horrors of beliefs and customs
Camouflaged by commonality
Reach out your hand, reach out your hand
Reach out your hand, reach out your hand
I still believe that there is hope for us, but I believe we must look outside
The sanctuaries of oppression that have brought our world so much pain
Yeah
Another blind guide replacing divine eyes
Whitewashed tombs have hidden the truth
Reach out your hand to find forgiveness, only to be plagued by disease
Reach out your hand to find forgiveness , only to be plagued by disease
Reach out your hand, reach out your hand |
The only constant is change
The only constant is change, go
The human heart is born without legs, sliding back and forth
And never once does it truly rest, unless accompanied by death
Sliding back and forth
Even the strongest remnants of history
They have begun to crumble against time
Sliding back and forth
The only constant is change
Nothing remains the same
The only constant is change
Theres only growth or decay
Lets go
Unvarying scenes only found in pictures can never breathe life
For nowhere else does level ground exist
Unless it has been captured by a flash of steady light
Sliding back and forth
The only constant is change
Uncertainty awaits
The only constant is change
Theres only growth or decay, or decay
The only constant is change
There is nothing that stays the same
From the foundation of our lives
There is nothing that stays the same
There is nothing to erase time
The only constant is change
Nothing remains the same
The only constant is change
Theres only growth or decay
The only constant is change
The only constant is change |
How can I bear this any longer
Arms stretched out only to hold separation
Take me away
Im dying inside, emptied before you
Take me into your arms
I will fight until the day when I will see
Sight given to these blind eyes
When will I be taken from this life?
Take what is yours
You deserve more than my life |
I see them coming
With shrouds to bury us all
Before we were born they shaped our lives
Leading us into an unmarked grave
In moments life could end
So I will speak while I can
This is my chance
My time to stand
We may fail alone but that is better
Than dying with them only to be forgotten
I for one would rather suffer now
Than leave this life without passion
This is our chance
Our time to stand |
Yeah
Could I ever go back, back to the life where I lived amongst the dead?
How could I go back, to live amongst the dead who have forgotten how to feel?
And become slaves to memory, and wishful thinking?
But your love has set me free as you awaken every star that has been sleeping in the constellation of my soul
How could I go back to live amongst the dead?
How could I go back to live amongst the dead?
How could I go back to live amongst the dead?
How could I go back to live amongst the dead?
Those who imprisoned beauty
I never want to leave your arms
So I wait in hope for your embrace, for your embrace
I wait in hope for your embrace
I wait in hope for your embrace
Yeah
Illusions of what I thought was love
Now I have clear sight to see that I have left nothing behind |
What is this world, what is it weve created
In the burdens of this life, I cannot rest
This world means nothing
Everything we hold will pass away
With a void of completion comfort will ever fade
I long for this wind to cease
Everything we hold will pass away
Everything we hold will pass away
I long for this wind to cease
We once held undying devotion
Dead to our thoughts, undefined like our love
Everything we hold will pass away
Everything we hold will pass away |
Up here in space
Im looking down on you
My lasers trace
Everything you do
You think youve private lives
Think nothing of the kind
There is no true escape
Im watching all the time
Im made of metal
My circuits gleam
I am perpetual
I keep the country clean
Im elected electric spy
Im protected electric eye
Always in focus
You cant feel my stare
I zoom into you
You dont know Im there
I take a pride in probing all your secret moves
My tearless retina takes pictures that can prove
Im made of metal
My circuits gleam
I am perpetual
I keep the country clean
Im elected electric spy
Im protected electric eye
Electric eye, in the sky
Feel my stare, always there
Theres nothing you can do about it
Develop and expose
I feed upon your every thought
And so my power grows
Im made of metal
My circuits gleam
I am perpetual
I keep the country clean
Im elected electric spy
Im protected electric eye
Protected
Detective
Electric eye |
Control is dead in this blind world
For we do what we hate
Split from inside
Betrayed by emotion, emotion
We must look past
What is in front of us
Shadows are security
They have become the solace
Of my looking glass heart
In search for certainty
I no longer need control
Take me through the fire
Refine what is Yours
Take me through the fire
Refine what is Yours
It is time to overcome this
We must look past
What is in front of us
It is time to overcome this
We must look past
What is in front of us |
I see no reason to try and be what I am not
If simple honesty moves me, then why should I care?
Others may think I lost my poetic way
But Id rather make my point without confusion
I have failed those who I love the most
And in the process become aware
I have accepted there is so much that I dont know
I have accepted my limitations
It is that knowledge that opens the door
For greater understanding
Perspective on what is still untold
I have accepted there is so much that I dont know
I have accepted my limitations
I have accepted there is so much that Ill never know
I have accepted my limitations
Sorting out my thoughts, that is why I write
Though I reveal my weakness surrendering is remedy
These songs have helped me though my greatest pain
Unwound within me the disorder of my life
I now see things for how they are
Even if that is a harsh reality
I have accepted there is so much that I dont know
I have accepted my limitations
I have accepted there is so much that Ill never know
I have accepted my limitations |
I see who you are and who else can compare
I meant what I said, I promised to stand by your side
Until the end, thats where we begin
From here to eternity, we begin understanding
It is our hearts that define what has meaning in life
Some will ask how can this be
But it was you who made me feel |
You brought existence
To what I never thought could be
A world where eternity finds description
I followed a dream only to be left in reality
You reminded me of the unexplainable
And then reshaped me by your beauty
Knowing you has reinvented love in my heart
The perfection of loves true existence
Experienced for the first time
I tried so hard to wake from this dream
But instead realized that I never fell asleep |
We climbed a thousand steps without a single imprint
This drowning regret will die
Forgotten like my past
Forgotten like my past
Moving bodies lie in rest
Carried by each other
A thousand steps |
Were born helpless
But guided by humanity
What was compassion?
Soon controls the way we think
Familiarity has left me desitized
And inanity keeps deception disguised
We are lost but keep moving forward
To find the truth we must turn around
History reveals an inviting
Sense of compromise
Our customs destroyed
What was once unique
Traditions started with useful intention
Now Subjugate those too numb to question
We are lost but keep moving forward
To find the truth we must turn around
We are lost!
To find the truth we must turn around
I desire to wake from Sedation
And begin to seperate
The truth from tradition
We are lost but keep moving forward
To find the truth we must turn around
We are lost but keep moving forward
To find the truth we must turn around
We are lost but keep moving forward
To find the truth we must turn around |
You meant the world to me
All I have now is memories
Your love brought joy to my heart
You meant the world to me
Tears of sorrow stream from my broken soul
But I will see you again
When this world fades away
I will see you again |
Reality no longer battles perception
This letters written to no one
Sincere
I sought your truth and divine purpose through myths of revelation
Guidance all wrapped up in a paper box
Supported only so long, as my mind was the enemy
Until I could not in good conscience hold on
You call this shameful disbelief
A process like losing my closest friend
AS WE face distress WE MUST not lose heart
STAND FAST and press on
TRIUMPH AWAITS
AS WE face distress WE MUST not lose heart
STAND FAST and press on
TRIUMPH AWAITS us
The powerful constant that I had once leaned on is no longer there
But no matter how sincere my devotion
The pieces never fit
AS WE face distress WE MUST not lose heart
STAND FAST and press on
TRIUMPH AWAITS
AS WE face distress WE MUST not lose heart
STAND FAST and press on
TRIUMPH AWAITS us
Sometimes we have to watch our whole lives fall apart
Before we can rebuild them again - a greater foundation
Sometimes we have to watch our whole lives
Before we can rebuild them again
A greater foundation
I wish there was another way
Triumph awaits!
Sometimes we have to watch our whole lives fall apart
Before we can rebuild them again - a greater foundation
Sometimes we have to watch our whole lives
Before we can rebuild them again
A greater foundation |
Mug mug mug
Coffee mug
Gonna clear away the haze
Liquid proof
That i can win this race
Coffee mug
The grip that keeps me tall
My inter-link
Keeps me questing all
I dont need no booze or drugs
I just chug-a-lug-o my coffee mug
And i dont need your kiss and hug
I just chug-a-lug-o my coffee mug
They havent banned
My liquid drug of choice
Theres too many hooked
And theyve got too much voice
So for the moment
Were all pretty good to go
With 98 cups
With 98 more to go
I dont need no booze or drugs
I just chug-a-lug-o my coffee mug
And i dont need your kiss and hug
I just chug-a-lug-o my coffee mug
Here a bean, there a bean
Everywhere a mean mean
Bean chug - a - lug - o - my
Coffee - mug, mug, mug, mug |
Reach inside of me
Far beneath the encasing of ashes
Bleeding red
Still showing signs of life
Remove the darkness
Take me away
A Stream of Hope destroy this corrupted cell
Purification
Unable to hide I am drawn to the fire
It is this pain that brings me likely do |
If I have been kept alive for one reason
Its to declare that apart from you I can do nothing
Though discouraged by my failure
I remember who I used to be
Like a murderer transformed into a pretty thief
I have so far, so far left to go
From shapeless to breakable I have involved. From shapeless to breakable
I have evolved
My transgressions are evident to all who know me
Like porcelain carried through a Downtown street
At any moment I might break
From shapeless to breakable I have evolved
I could say a thousand more apologies
But to prove that I have truly changed
Only time will tell
From shapeless to breakable I have involved
From shapeless to breakable
I have evolved |
This blood turned into tears
A broken heart runs my body
Dripping forth until I give my life
I have become a sacrifice
It hurts me just to think of you
I void the pain that is unbarring |
I see no reason to try and be what I am not
If simple honesty moves me, then why should I care?
Others may think I lost my poetic way
But Id rather make my point without confusion
I have failed those who I love the most
And in the process become aware
I have accepted there is so much that I dont know
I have accepted my limitations
It is that knowledge that opens the door
For greater understanding
Perspective on what is still untold
I have accepted there is so much that I dont know
I have accepted my limitations
I have accepted there is so much that I dont know
I have accepted my limitations
Soughting out my thoughts, that is why I write
Though I reveal my weakness surrendering is remedy
These songs have helped me through my greatest pain
Unwound within me the disorder of my life
I now see things for how they are
Even if that is a harsh reality
I have accepted there is so much that I dont know
I have accepted my limitations
I have accepted there is so much that I dont know
I have accepted my limitations |
Through this pain I refine
Tearing me from within
Screaming to be released but held fast by Your love
Hold me here
Break me until my face breathes upon this ground
Outstretched with my head to the floor
Spent of all my strength
Relying on Yours |
Exhausted beyond repair
Stripped of all I had
Forced to die inside
Nw Ibreathe a renewed Life
I is now I see without my eyes
If this is what it takes
To bring me to my knees
Then feed me pain until
I realize I am but a slave
Remind me of my need for You
Remind me of who I am |
Emptiness running through me
Taking all that i am
Leaving me this blinding mask
Grasping for the wind
Everything Ive done
Everything Ive gained
It all means nothing
A mere breath has passed away
Sadness I embrace
Left with empty promises
I look at myself and see the scars
That are brought to me by this life
Then I ask myself
Is that all this world has to give
The chase is over I am finished
Stripped of every reason I cry out to You
From my knees I scream |
I cannot make it without You
All my efforts have failed
So that I will cry out in the need of You
Restore the strength of my Dependence
Send me through the fire
Make me pure again
Everything I am
I give it all to You
In Your arms I wait
I lay down my life
I am nothing without You |
Propaganda death ensemble
Burial to be
Corpses rotting through the night
In blood laced misery
Scorched earth the policy
The reason for the siege
The pendulum it shaves the blade
The strafing air blood raid
Infiltration push reserves
Encircle the front lines
Supreme art of strategy
Playing on the minds
Bombard till submission
Take all to their graves
Indication of triumph
The number that are dead
Sport the war, war support
The sport is war, total war
When victorys really massacre
The final swing is not a drill
Its how many people I can kill
Sport the war, war support
The sport is war, total war
When victorys really survival
The final swing is not a drill
Its how many people I can kill
Be dead friend from above
When darkness falls
Descend into my sights
Your fallen walls
Spearhead break through the lines
Flanked all around
Soldiers of attriction
Forward their ground
Regime prophetic age
Old in its time
Flowing veins run on through
Deep in the Rhine
Center of the web
All battles scored
What is our war crimes
Propaganda war ensemble
Burial to be
Bones shining in the night
In blood laced misery
Campaign of elimination
Twisted psychology
When victory is to survive
And death is defeat
Sport the war, war support
The sport is war, total war
When the end is a slaughter
The final swing is not a drill
Its how many people I can kill |
Only You know my pain inside
Youve been there when no one else could be
When tears fall from my eyes
I know that You are always there
No matter whats in my heart
You are the One who cares
When I doubt, You stand by me
So Im not ashamed to say the way I feel
I love You, You are my Everything |
Shatter my emotions
Take them all away
Left alone to face You
Now You know my heart
Left only to speak what is true
See through this plague of flesh
With truth I say that I love You
Yet my heart betrays me
Be not far from me
For these voices
They must soon cease
Despite their betrayal
You died for me |
For so long I was deceived
Enslaved by these chains
Blinded to Your forgiveness
If only I knew Your love
Giving Your life to save me from this pain
Broken and bleeding I turned You away
Now I have seen the scars inflicted by my hands
The Innocence spilled to save me
Reaching to the hand that brought You this pain
And now I am on my knees
Crying the way You wept for me
Crying, crying tears of shame
Dying, dying to take away their pain
I hear the screams of those who call from the grave
Dying for me to take their pain |
Take me home
Imitations surround me
You are all I want to see
So why do I turn
To embrace what will never last
All my life Ive tried
All my life Ive failed
And one day I will see
Surrounded on every side |
Hell hound!
Hot leather on your legs
Theyre smoking power kegs
Your ranting on means
Its hell bound!
And youre the one they claim
Is going down in flames
Youre acting in Hades grave
Hellion! The devils hellion in town
Hellion! Well never have to die!
Well, child
Youre sweating and youre stoned
Theyve got to knock you down
Makes you crazy all night!
Youre in never ending pain
And drink the devils rain
Youre screaming out your name
Hellion! The devils hellion in town
Hellion! Well never have to die!
The Gods you worship are steel
At the altar of rock and roll
You kneel
A slave who forever rocks
His tail in the devils locks
A slave like the bloody exile
Hellion! The devils hellion in town
Hellion! Well never have to die! |
Reach inside of me
Far beneath the encasing of ashes
Bleeding red
Still showing signs of life
Remove the darkness
Take me away
A Stream of Hope destroy this corrupted cell
Purification
Unable to hide I am drawn to the fire
It is this pain that brings me likely do |
How quickly I forget
That this is meaningless
How quickly I forget
That this is meaningless
That night I never came home
Wandering souls captured my thoughts
Emptiness filled my mind
Urgency spoke her lies
How quickly I forget
That this is meaningless
How quickly I forget
That this is meaningless
In the confines of these gray walls
I watched them move together
Taking me places I cannot remember
We have been poured out into a loveless bride
How quickly I forget
That this is meaningless
How quickly I forget
That this is meaningless
In a world passing through my fingers
I still chase the wind
How quickly I forget
That this is meaningless
How quickly I forget
That this is meaningless
How quickly I forget
That this is meaningless
How quickly I forget
That this is meaningless |
I see now, I see through the veil of expectation
I see now, I see that conformity is betrayal
Betrayal of those who are forgotten, yet vision alone furthers our blame
Unless followed by transformation, it is pointless to be given sight
Without the hope of our reaction, we overlook the purpose of our eyes
Now is our chance to breathe without tyranny, released from the blinding of false light
Now is our chance to breathe without tyranny. In weakness we are freed
I see now, I see that conformity is betrayal
With empty eyes Ive looked ahead , with clarity I now look back
Now is our chance to breathe without tyranny, released from the blinding of false light
Now is our chance to breathe without, without tyranny
In weakness we are freed. Yeah!
I admit my failure. Opacity has dulled my senses
Conformity controlled by lifeless vices. Oh! Yeah!
Covetousness disguised as ambition
But now it ends
Not with defeat but determination. We are freed. Yeah!
Now is our chance to breathe without tyranny, released from the blinding of false light
Now is our chance
In weakness we are freed |
How can I bear this any longer?
Arms stretched out only to hold separation
Take me away
Im dying inside, emptied before you
Take me into your arms
I will fight until the day when I will see
Sight given to these blind eyes
When will I be taken from this life?
Take what is yours
You deserve more than my life |
Tyujtyj
Tyj
Tyj
Ty
J
T
Yjtyjtyjty |
I can only imagine that wrath is being held out
So there will be time for us to be redeemed
But surely wrath is not being held out
So that we may redeem ourselves
For Ive seen the madness
Of those who died trying
But is regret only a word that the living possess?
I long to see their faces
Regardless of the decay
For in the eyes of the deceased...
We would see hope in our last day
Inside this dying world
For there is still beauty
Inside this dying world
For what good is there holding off wrath
If we are determined
To bring wrath upon ourselves |
The Lyrics dataset parsed from Genius. This dataset is designed to generate lyrics with HuggingArtists. Model is available here.
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How to load this dataset directly with the datasets library:
from datasets import load_dataset
dataset = load_dataset("huggingartists/as-i-lay-dying")
An example of 'train' looks as follows.
This example was too long and was cropped:
{
"text": "Look, I was gonna go easy on you\nNot to hurt your feelings\nBut I'm only going to get this one chance\nSomething's wrong, I can feel it..."
}
The data fields are the same among all splits.
text
: a string
feature.train | validation | test |
---|---|---|
102 | - | - |
'Train' can be easily divided into 'train' & 'validation' & 'test' with few lines of code:
from datasets import load_dataset, Dataset, DatasetDict
import numpy as np
datasets = load_dataset("huggingartists/as-i-lay-dying")
train_percentage = 0.9
validation_percentage = 0.07
test_percentage = 0.03
train, validation, test = np.split(datasets['train']['text'], [int(len(datasets['train']['text'])*train_percentage), int(len(datasets['train']['text'])*(train_percentage + validation_percentage))])
datasets = DatasetDict(
{
'train': Dataset.from_dict({'text': list(train)}),
'validation': Dataset.from_dict({'text': list(validation)}),
'test': Dataset.from_dict({'text': list(test)})
}
)
@InProceedings{huggingartists,
author={Aleksey Korshuk}
year=2021
}
Built by Aleksey Korshuk
For more details, visit the project repository.